外科医生奉达熙

lol, must be wondering wad is all these about?.. hahaz.. this is a korean show.. (ya.. got korean words..) this is one show that i am watching.. haha.. thks for recommending this show. though i only managed to watch only the start and episode 11,.. hahaz
i think tt this show

1. gory... blood blood blood almost evert episode
2. erm.. educational ba.. didn't know about so many technical terms before..
3. touching also ba.. the way the kinship, friendship, relationships just flow together.
4. er.. needa finish everything else first.. hahaz =)

finally got the results off my mind. now i'll can put my mind to watching this show le.. muahahaha..
Dun worry, i'll finish the show slowly to watch carefully everything.. hahahaz.. 18epidsodes.. i can do it!!! =) -_-'''

here's the show embed in my blog..

its out.. my results, and my class... Result: Advanced.

well, its not too bad as after moderation, i see some light.. in my results. only 5 ppl in the class managed to promote. the word is PROMOTE. it means not to fail anything. tt's y i feel for some who failed 1 subject and advanced. well, the plus point is that the 20 of us will be together for another yr at least. (YES, it's atleast).

OP will be this coming friday and my group happens to be the last group of the day with two moderators, one of them most probably is the mr tan seng huat, (HOD PW... for the chief internal moderator)

right now.. i am more motivated to work than slack le. yes... be optimistic... it does work out this time round.

hurray!!.. my liverpool jacket has finally arrived after much waiting. my aunt came to my house this evening, and showed me a bag... my jacket was inside. haha.. Thanks aunt!!..
she never fails to brighten up ppl's lives with unexpected gifts.. haha..
this jacket is $100.90, and to think i manage to get it F.O.C. (grinning)

and i just received news that i'm in the OGL. this will also rid the possiblility of me being kicked out. just so happy of all a sudden tonight.
tmr will be OP 2nd run's day before.. and i'm stuck with a video to do.. wow.. desperate situations call for desparate measures. i'm gonna stay up tonight to try and finish it, even if i have no more coffee sachets left. (boy, i'm almost kicking the addiction away le...)

ya.. tt's abt it.. before i resume to work again. va va vroom..

i'm really scared already.

some ppl has already received the death call. will i have one soon? i don't know. i used to keep saying "sure fail one la". but now, how i wish if i hadn't said so...

i wouldn't wanna retain. and i mean it. i've worked so hard, come so far.. i can't stop right here...

been tensed up ever since i got wind of the "deathcall". cooped myself the whole day watching naruto (wad was i doing?) and i was also shocked when i realised i'm already at episode 64 !?

i dunno how.. my confidence, i guess = 0, or even -ve...

sigh.. help me out... i nid a "get out of this mess" card.

scared... ask me y.. =l

what does these all tell? my photo-taking skills suxs.. yesterday me and my PW group went to NLB at 3pm only to find security out there saying: "today not open to public" *jaws open*

decisions finalised to go to the airport (something very wrong with this sentence).
reached the airport at 4 plus pm. entered staff canteen at T2.
LOL.. my group only me and zhang chuan knew about the existence of staff canteen.. hmm.. so they always go those $$ places arh...

then we started doing our WR.
halfway there, i was slacking around with the "sudoku" game on my phone until i rmbed abt my promos and my mood just changed. i ignored everyone there.. i just felt so helpless then..

well, tuesday will be the submission. so i hope to give it my all for them, even if i get kicked out... Go on.. we'll make it!!! =)

today went to sakae@city hall to celebrate yin zhi's bday. along were ken, zc, irvin, arnold, alex.
its was very fun to meet the bn guys again and it was quite fun trying to gobble down the food altogether.

anyway, just too tired to tag at all..

here's a summary of my results so far. (anyway, its all over le)

GP : C
Phy : U
Chem : U
Math : D
Geog : U

so screwed up.. though i improved my language and maths, i really need to do something for the rest.
i got the class's lowest for physics.
ms koh spoke to me too.. about my approach in the paper.
should i make it to next yr, i'll be having intensive work durin the hols.

Meanwhile, i got to give it my all for PW to make sure my group scores. i dunno if my PW score is useful to me or not.
sigh.. crying is not my game. but what else can i do?

today was the release of the maths and chemistry paper.
i managed to pass maths with a lowly score of 42/80 which is a D. i had expected better. but still seeing how others cried when they didn't make it just make me feel so grateful, since they had studied more than i do.

chemistry was plain murdered. 36/100 U.

tmr will be physics and geog.

couldn't get back the scripts to scan... =)

cheer up. we can do better next time. haha =)

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Like most people, the thought of being a vampire has crossed your mind. But you're not sure if you'd do it, even if you could. Living forever doesn't sound half bad, if you could live forever with the people you love the most. But do vampires even love? And would the vampire version of you even be you? It's all too much to contemplate. Luckily, the chances of you ever becoming a vampire are astronomically low. What you would like best about being a vampire: Living forever What you would like least about being a vampire: Blood stained teeth

Could You Be a Vampire?

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT) You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

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Chance You'll Live to 100: 67%

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You Are 48% Abnormal

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Your Birth Month is December

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You are practical and mechanical. Your talents lie in working with tools, mechanical or electrical drawings, machines, or animals. You would make an excellent: Carpenter - Diesel Mechanic - Electrician Farmer - Fire Fighter - Flight Engineer Forester - Locksmith - Locomotive Engineer Pilot - Police Officer - Truck Driver The worst career options for your are social careers, like social worker or teacher.

What's Your Ideal
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You Will Die at Age 55

Not bad, considering your super wild lifestyle Want to live longer? Try losing a few bad habits.

What Age
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Your Element Is Air

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You Are Chinese Food

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You Are 60% Gentleman

Generally you act like a gentleman, but sometimes you're careless with your manners. Most people know that you're trying your best - and that's usually good enough.

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You Are 40% Happy

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couldn't continue with the previous post due to some glitch. but anyway.. i'm just glad to have these frens. thanks everyone.

couldn't get to sleep last night. was thinking about a lot of things. i knew i was tired. tired from all that playing. but my eyes just didn't closed. i couldn't sleep.

i dun know how on earth am i going to help my class get bonded again. i have seen and heard other ppl whose classes are as worst or even worse. they just heck care and allow things to degrade. i am confused. Some ppl tell me to stamp my authority, which i seriously find it hard to do so. i ain't that kind of person. some tell me to heck care also, but that is not my style either. meanwhile, i am really disappointed and not motivated already.

it just feels as if the guys in the class (almost all of them) are against me. everything that i do is being criticsed, be it right or wrong. this whole nightmare is just coming back to haunt me.

the nightmare: sec 1. i used to play basketball a lot. and seriously speaking, until sec 1. i have never played soccer in my entire live b4. in my sec 1 class. there were 11 guys where most of them played scocer. the rest = no sports. i can't possibly play bball alone. so i followed. i was ignorant about this sport intially. they always played in the school field. i was asked to be the keeper. i followed. i realised that it was a s**t job as the shots by the opponents always very forceful. my hand hurt a lot then. but i didn't say anything. naturally, i wasn't doing too well then. always kena criticised. i was always the one in class to be sabotage or tease. this torture carried on till sec 2.

in sec 1: they asked me to play as a striker after my failure in goal. i mananged to score a couple before i was **** again. criticised again.
in sec 2: i played as a defender. reasons due to losing = ME. EVERYTHING ALSO MY FAULT!!!
i played everyday, with them. neglecting my studies totally.
in sec 3: streamed to combined science. left those guys. (they were in double sciences, triple WTH!!)
my new classmates were better, except for some who well... approach me if u want to know.
the sec 2 guys from my class never fail to criticise me everytime they see me play. I score goals =criticise. i defend properly= criticise... i couldn;t take it anymore...

this will probably let ppl realised why i am so pessimistic. i am not confident about myself at all. i always find myself feeling so screwed up.
sometimes, i may get paranoid when ppl say that i am good..

when i see the soccer team around, i always try to avoid them because of all these. there always this feeling that i am being look down by everyone, no one respects me. my existence is merely for the sake of making up the numbers ba. i guess.

my class. i love it. but how do i make it better?

sigh.

just came back home after two days at duck's huse. Thanks a lot for the hospitality!!!
those 2 days were really fun and crazy.

Crazy?!... the pictures below will narrate:sleep sleep sleep.. dun u think he looks like buddha? haha =)

and we also played fifa like mad...

today was the start of Open House 07. i reached sch at 7am. Reporting time for everyone else was 8.30pm. SAI KANG started.
these were what the LOGISTICS IC = ME did.. in short

• Opened the canvas, taped stage, manpower management
• hall, canteen, atrium touch up
• equipment providing
• Working as Cleaners to remove trash bags in canteen, sch.. (p.s. the cleaners were just watching the dance performances while i clenaed up.
• Working at coupons sales counter

mogu said that i am very good-hearted that's y i do so many things.. haha.. i guess ba.. she also do a lot of things... btw, she played the dunno wad chinese instrument.. the tune quite nice..

sigh.. just so sorry to ivan desmond, and edwin. i was just soooo stressed.. i am not known to be able to work well in crowds or like to be in crowded places. naturally, i am not able to work well in such enviroments. and with the Logistics, CG booth and other situations all surfacing at one go. i really needed everyone's co-operation.

this is to ivan and desmond. sorry for my attitude towards the two of u just now. it is no doubt my fault that i flared up at u two and even shouted at u, including tt " F" word. but, what i want u to understand is that at that moment, i had a lot of things in my mind that had to be settled at once. i really needed u to go out and buy the lollipop. but u seem really reluctant to do so. do i have to really beg u real hard and nicely b4 u start to move. its not that i didn't speak nicely to u initially, but u refused to budge. with all that things on my mind. i really couldn't control myself. afterall, i am no robot. by now, i supposed that u should know that i am pretty amiable, and i seldom flare up unless really overboard. at that moment, i just felt as if u 2 had pushed me to my limits. seriously, all that talk abt fairness and equality is not wrong. but think again, is life always fair? NO. life suxs and it is unfair. u guys join me in the log comm and get abt 13-15 hrs. WAT DO I GET? 40? 30? 50? NO!!! i get 16. so i just hope that u would count urself fortunate to have all these. i ain't complaining. so, ya... this is just my thoughts... Regarding the lollipop incident, when u told me abt the lollipop price, i had estimated abt 50 lollipops that we might need. howe ver, ioverlooked the fact that we had only 7kg of cokkies instead of the original 10kg. hence, though its my fault eventually for mislooking this, i really was very busy with other stuff. and u called me jsut to ask me and when i gave u the answer.. u kept asking me more when i was rushed by my teacher. how u expect me ti handle these things all at the same time? what would u do if u were in my shoes?...

and i realised something abt u two... u guys can be great pals.. but when it comes to some details..,.. i can only see that u guys are just tooooo practical le... money, money.. fair or not, equality... i wouldn't want to dwell more on these. anyway, i just hope that u would understand the situation i was in then.. put urself in my shoes..

MEANWHILE.. ALL i want to say is

I AM SO SORRY

to edwin:
bro, u have a great help during this period, helping to buy the log stuff first. and u r really a very nice guy. jsut want to say sorry for venting my anger on u just now after the lollipop incident.


sigh... jsut so shagged.. i dun noe why everytime got big events, no thank you is mentioned to the logistics comm.. it just suxs lor.. they sound like everyone else do a lot.but actually WTH
if no log comm..
there will be no stage
no cca booths
no cg booths
no dance, no canteen arranged for open huse
no OPEN HOUSE AT ALL!!

then i was really disappointed during the cleaning up process. will talk abt that another day.. meanwhile, at duck huse chionging games tonite..

this may appear as if it is a piece of crap or unsightly picture. But it is my sweat and effort... haha..
this is the platform for the dance and house dance. me n my log comm did it up.

tmr's open house le, and i am working out the layout of the canteen for clean up tmr.
i am really very sorry that i am unable to help out at the CG booth.. i just hope that my class will understand.
i would love to help out...

i am just so tired.. i know that everyone else is also.. so mine is insignificant.

i just wonder when will i ever get noticed for things that i do. ever since when, i have been doing things that i know other ppl will not know abt it. But, i really sometimes feel that it would do me good should we get noticed for our efforts. this is because the logistics Comm is An UNSUNG committee that works within a restricted budget, limits and instructions from above to make sure that eventually everything works well.

but the success is often acredited to the others, neglecting the Log Comm..

*yawn... tired le...

tmr's the day.. just hoping that my juniors and my frens can try to pop by.. SUpport Me..! =)

to mogu: how did u even find my blog? haha.. curious