2months plus since last blogged.
anyway, havent got much to blog about since i'm pretty much stuck in NS...
duty duty, duty, duty,..

still duty!!!...

well... still got 1 yr 3months left....
and i'm going for blood test on 3rd day of CNY... wad luck..
and i lost my name tag for my uniform.
and i'm freaking bored...

so sian...
and today kena scolded after duty for no reason. and i mean it.. totally off track, make no sense why i got scolded...
does it mean that some ppl are hot tempered means we should let them scold or shout at u for no cause?
darn.. screw my morning...

very long while since i last blogged. i have successfully revocated to somewhere better.
in the meanwhile, this whole while, life sucks most of the time. why?

- missed a step of the bus when alighting and literally slipped off the bus and got a bruise
- placed my phone in the washing machine and "washed" it
- lost my camp pass for one week only to realise it was in my bag all along.
- tripping and falling on my safety boots(ironic)

and i'm really bored. my number's changed btw.. facebook mafia wars, barn buddy.. sigh

6 days in the hospital

it all started off on two Thursdays ago. i felt numbness on the right side of my body while standing during parade in the m0rning. i didn't felt it warranted a checkup and ignored the signals from my body.

On last Monday, the same thing happened to me. i decided that i should inform my superiors and i was advised to report sick about this issue. On Tuesday, i reported sick again. i was taken lightly and case was closed. Wednesday, nothing happened. Thursday, i collapsed during parade in the morning after i couldn't feel my right side of the body. My right eye kept flinching. it took me about 15 mins before i felt myself. Paramedics arrived. I was rushed to the medical center n before i knew it, i was referred to A & E.

in the hospital, i was initially admitted into the ASU also known as Acute Stroke Unit. i probably broke their records being the youngest to admit. subsequently, lots of tests were run on me and i was kept under observation, like a lab rat, i guess. haha.

tests i took include the CT scan, MRI scan, X-ray, heart scan, ultrasound, and i wore a apparatus that monitored my heart rate for a day.

staying inside the hospital certainly brought me to an eye-opener, with all sorts of people. at one juncture, i thought to myself, looking at the old people around me... "what will happen to me once i grow old like them?" "Left here by myself?, ". one tends to lets their thoughts run wild when they are alone, real bored.

everyday, even though i may not show it, but i was longing for visits from my peers, parents and good friends. no matter whom it may be, i wanted a companion to talk to, to feel at ease..
well, here's a thanks and much more gratitude to those who have visited or helped me one way or another along this way. Big Thanks.

yup, i do appreciate life better now. but my leg's still numb.
and the conclusion drawn from my nearly-one-week stay is that -->
there is no conclusion yet about my problem. still have pending visits to the neurologists and orthopedician later on..

Thanks to those who cared, because i care. =D

its been really a while since last blogged.

so far weeks have passed since i'm in the navy.

but i'm really unhappy inside. i dont feel like i belong inside the place. the people there think differently, act differently.. sometimes i just feel like disappearing.

haven't blog in quite a while..

9th august. national day. was at the floating platform.. but didnt get to the marching contingent in the end. was really upset.. but oh wells.. life's always like this..

now the lessons in camp are getting more n more packed.. soon i'll be bringing notes home to mug.. lol

and i just passed my swimming on sat.. yay.. now one more test and i can book out on wed n fridays
=)

finally feeling better.
was running a fever since last friday. booked in at night just to realise that. reported sick and was sent to paya lebar medical center where i was given 5days of mc..

yesterday night was the worst time when my fever actually shot up to 39.5 in the night..

thank goodness my fever has subsided so far.

2 more days before i report back camp..

and this fever thing really can spread...

3 weeks in the navy so far.. really dont feel anything.

however, here's something new for the week. i was volunteered to replace some of the seniors in the marching contingent for this yr's ndp.
so saturday was spent on the ndp show for pri 5 kids who got to preview the ndp.
the feeling on the platform really felt different and the spotlights really shone.

it is really an unforgettable experience regardless of the sweat, rain and pain we've been thru.
if i had a chance, i'wouldnt give up this chance for anything else.

this week book in, and my orientation course would be completed and my eventual vocation will be released. best of luck to all.

two weeks in naval base already.
really not used to life there. and i'm not the only one complaining
so are my platoon mates..

no discipline... everything taking own sweet time..
i can't stand it..

2more weeks to end of orientation phase and hopefully i'll get streamed to a vocation where the irritating ppl aren't there.

and it is not nice to BOOK OUT only ON SATURDAYS... sighs.
and i need to start learn swimming asap...

Posted to IMOS.. which stands for institute of operations and marinetime. and to report to only Changi is a bonus especially there is a chartered bus at tanan merah mrt to fetch us there.

exploring the possiblilty of signing on, whereas i'll watch as my frens ORD one by one... while i continue to slog on in the navy. oh wells..

monday, booking in. everything feels new again. lots of unknowns out there.. how will i fare?

hide n seek is not fun. not fun at all. not when u r the seeker.

where r u?

... ... ...

Today started bad. Woke up late. Couldn't go to sch to collect my certificate and SGC.. =( Had to meet gerald straight away at kallang to go CAGE...

shan't elaborate bout the game.. but my ankle is SWELLING!!... from all tt kicking. and my toes blue black also. Studs stepping on my feet... OUCH..
super careless to turn back and get stepped..

wanted to go tan tock seng see my grandma today.. but my mum insist me n my siblings stay home.. cuz risk H1N1... lol..nvm, when my grandma come back again then go visit her.

and stayed home today. still reading my angels and demons... but completing soon.
and this friday. POSTING results.

and i actually tripped while walking back home.. oops. lol. sighs.

today feels weird. weird?

another week coming to an end. it marks half of my block leave ended.
this morning, played soccer at eunos. played until about 12pm to 1pm..
later back home, bathed and snoozed... until 4pm.
went out to meet up with the rbs part timers for dinner at city hall NYNY.

then everyone roamed marina square helping joscelin find a blazer.

now must go check how to get to paya lebar air base tmr for another check-up.. at 9am. *yawns*
and sore throat is so irritating. =(

at last, this 6 weeks of BMT has concluded..
this least i could draw from this is that i have passed. no longer a recruit.

somehow, couldn't really feel brotherhood. perhaps its me or perhaps its true.
no brotherhood.

wad awaits me now would be my postings as to whether i would get into air force or navy.
and this block leave suddenly makes me feels so empty...
rotting at home..
bleh

finally, BMT is coming to an end already...
this week is the last 2nd week.

really have a lot of thoughts running through my mind..
but i muz say i think the last part of BMT is fun..
the cheering, games day..

but then again... i just feel sooo disappointed at my section...
can't be bothered with.
and i'm like a fool trying to prove to others that my section isn't like what they think...

darn it.. they treat me like a fool..

and i've got interviews at various vocations.. =)

next monday will be p o c ...
then block leave.
*yawn*..

5th week in bmt over.
what a long week.
booked in on saturday.
booked out today.

its only 9 more days to end of BMT... but i feel so worn out by my section... if not, by those can't-be-bothered ones in my section.

i totally agree with my sergeant who says that at the end of your BMT, "What have you really contributed to your platoon/section? and What have you really gained from BMT?"
even as i feel unmotivated to talk to my section, its not right for me to leave them alone, so...
i really hope that they'll do something about it, instead of procrastinating all the time.

BMT is not as tough as it seems.. just that we get punished for the attitude and lax mentality we displayed as a platoon. PES C doesn't mean you can just rot through this few weeks. Make full use of this time to find your potential.

sry, just grumbling like an old man... nid to get this off my back... super fed up with them.

and i'm gonna POC (Passing-Out-Ceremony) soon le.....
and i found out i've a tibial nerve injury... oops

feeling super distraught right now.
yep. after a phone call.
omg.
...
tt's it...

confidential. can't even talk bout it at all...

it never feels good to be sick.

never ever good.

not even this time.

was running a high fever since last sunday.
went to camp and was on drip for 4 days.
arms both littered with needles scars. and the medic traumatised me by poking the needle into the wrong veins.
and i passed out also. vomiting non-stop.

disastrous week. feeling really weak.
*cough*

just came back home again.
really.
Man is selfish. The world is cruel.
i've seen loads of selfish acts during the 3weeks stay i've had.
and sigh.
this 4th wk is gonna be a camp.
i feel so screwed.
will we backstab each other?
sigh.

and i've been injuring myself every now and then.
yesterday night, cut my finger with a swiss army knife... alamak.
wad will i cut tmr? haha.

booking out feels awesome initially, but after u reach home...
it doesn't feels really cool..
it just means...
book in soon... aRGH...

sian. went beach road to buy stuff to book in with...
and as usual, clumsy and careless, i left out one item to buy...

coincidence as it might be... one of my bunk mates is actually just one storey above me, meaning to say, we stay in the same block. Was so surprised when i saw his IC... haha.

5 more weeks, couple more book outs/ins.. and no more botak le.
field camp coming soon...

and i'm looking to get myself a watch soon.. =)

juz back home...
tired, and mentally shagged..
and this sunday go back again...

*yawns*